Numb............ ?

I made myself numb to so many feeling...
I no longer expect
I no longer wish or hope
I no longer feel angry or sad

But why am I so clingy to life nowadays...

I definitely do not like this feeling.

But rest in peace, Ana...
You are in a better place now~

DONE!!!

My diploma ended today and it is just bliss...
came home and watch House and played games of course..
This semester is so hectic that I am glad that it is now all over....
had a last meal with classmate and it was fun~

I've nothing to say really...
except...
I'm done with Diploma~~~~~

If I love kpop because of its songs..
I wouldn't be only indulging in Super Junior
And love other non idols...

So please don't judge my delusional state of mind
Because anyone can dream
so let me dream mine.

No one can push away the feeling of emoness..

LOLs at the title...
But it is true...
To me at least.

Para - Para - Paradise

When she was just a girlShe expected the worldBut it flew away from her reach soShe ran away in her sleepand dreamed ofPara-para-paradisePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradiseEvery time she closed her eyes

When she was just a girlShe expected the worldBut it flew away from her reachand the bullets catch in her teethLife goes on, it gets so heavyThe wheel breaks the butterflyEvery tear a waterfallIn the night the stormy night she'll close her eyesIn the night the stormy night away she'd fly

and dreams ofPara-para-paradisePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-ohShe'd dream ofPara-para-paradisePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradiseOh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh

lalalalalalalalalalalaAnd so lying underneath those stormy skiesShe'd say, "oh, ohohohoh I know the sun must set to rise"

This could bePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradiseOh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-ohThis could bePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradiseThis could bePara-para-paradiseOh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh
This song is so meaningful~~~ Love it~~ =) Well, it's Coldplay~ =)

Understood

Hey Tablo...
I finally understood what you meant by lonely...

Don't Care

You know...
One thing very scary about me that no one knows...
or they know but do not take it seriously is...

If I don't care, I really.... like really don't care..

That.... is one of the most dangerous part of me...
Laugh all you want...
I did flunk Form 6 Physics and  previous semester's Highway and Traffic.

Found this in kpopsecrets.tumblr.com

This is one of the most beautiful thing I've read.

Fandom should have more of this kind.... =)

Two things I'm not fond of

Crowded area
.
.
.
.
.
and loud people....

Doesn't mean that you are right if you speak louder... jsyk~

很想放弃一切

I hope that you know that this is a reply =)

In life, things sometimes just doesn't go the way that we want it to go
But hey, didn't we said it before...
Everyday we live is like an everyday test...
Hurdles that we have to jump over...
Sometimes we gave the wrong answer..
Sometimes we fall flat on the face and the bar trips over....
But there's always a solution, a correction...
A moment where you get to stand back up...

It's all what you want, not what has turned out.

We will never change if we don't want it to.. =)

Here is to Forever...
Where Forever will lead to~ =)

PS: This coming from the person who doesn't believe we will walk this through....
But you are partly my strength...
and everyone of you guys, who taught me that Forever does exist if we hold true to it...
If you don't give up, I won't give up.
If you gave up, I will be there to bring your hope back.
7 is a number that holds more than its value, remember that~ =)

PPS: Let me creep to a corner and cry my eyes out....... SEE WHAT YOU DID!!! SEI YEH~

다 꿈이다

"가까워서 행복해" 라고 말했어요~

다 꿈이다...... 꿈이야~

What am I afraid of?

Risk?

Money?

Appreciation?

Stepping out of my comfortable circle?

A hatred I do not need to have

**click to enlarge image**

The company and the fans alike....

I don't think I can stay in this fucked up kpop fandom anymore...

Awards..... what awards??

Bunch of bull......

It was alright before little kids came in to play.
People who take fandom too seriously just ruin it for everyone.
Them and the company. Fuck off.
staying well away from any award...
If they win, it'll be a cherry on top of my self made cake.
I have no hope on it anymore.

싫다

affected me more than I want it to be

http://goinswriter.com/travel-young/

This..... affected me....
More than I wanted it to be....

My tag seems to be rather appropriate for this post.

I have a lot of questions

Who am I?
Who am I to this world?
What am I to do in this world?
Why am I doing what I am doing?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Why am I still alive?

Questions that I find it hard to get an answer.

There goes my hero, watch him as he goes

Nothing beats a cover of your favourite song from one of your favourite band from another of your favourite band. TRUST ME.

/Rolls around in Foo Fighters and Yellowcard's awesomeness/

I will never admit it

and I will never do it.

Sometimes I wish I'm honest to everyone else, but I can't.
This "it" will stay with me till I die.








that being said, I wish I can find one person that I can tell that "it" to.
The cries of help who will be able to hear it?

If only this emo feelings can be snapped away....
I'll be gladly it be gone in a snap~

And then you just................
Please take care.

I nearly cry for someone who doesn't even know me personally.

Late Autumn

So many feelings today.....
days like this I miss my one windowed tiny room....
I........ I.... will go take bath~

3rd Gate

So many feelings right now.....
Hell, I'm missing it before I even left.

So many Zhou Mi and Hyukjae feelings especially....... T-T

Going to miss it a whole lot

I do not have a close encounter.
Nor do I get to see them upclose either.

But I'm going to miss this feelings.
This little feelings that makes you heart jump.
I'm going to miss it a whole lot.....
when I'm forced to leave it behind.

Loving you hurts so bad

It just hurts~~~
and for the fact that me hurting and complaining will not change a thing hurts more.

Of course......

안 이해해요....

Your voice is everywhere~ =)

I don't want to know~
I don't need to know~
Don't tell me...
I don't want to feel like this anymore.....
I have only 4 months~
Let me love them like I want to love them for 4 months~
That's all I'm asking.

Wide open wound that doesn't hurt

Clock is ticking, undeniably..
They say the process takes more energy then enduring the true result
No one has ever lied when it's about the end of something

I'm alright, I'm fine
I'm taking it all in like one should
things that hurts, I'll leave them behind
things that brings joy, I'll cherish them

Life is good~
Life is here~
Life is now~
=D

The End is just depressing

Two things that I don't want, will never want to see the end of it...

Super Junior

SS Gang

Two things in my life......
that must not end......

My heart....... T_____________T
/crying endlessly watching Strong Heart/

And the things I see, Super Junior and SS Gang have so much in common...
A non-coloured, doesn't change friendship, let's go on till forever...
With SS Gang...
And Super Junior.

My very own catering service

Stupid init?
I say "It's for the love...."
but it is still stupid...
enduring human beings with their brains in their asses.
but with a slight gratefulness.... I'm happy.
being shallow....

Who the hell are you?
Recently, I've been thinking of you.
was happy that you sent texts to me..
but what crap..... people send text to me all the time asking about Inti bus services...
Obviously not going to look anymore into it..
I have no rights to.

Am I cut out for this?
Sometimes I just feel like throwing them all away...
staring at it for so long but can't make out what was studied...
It's frustrating.... in so many levels.
Studied for 6 FULL semesters...
graduating in a few months time...
But can't even make out the details of a drain...
useless piece of shit.

Are you still here for me?
Looking at you right now...
sometimes makes me more emo than I should..
Guess the idea of can't have you is more hurting than I thought it to be.
Can't cry like I used to...
Sometimes I want my own room back.
Maybe that's the cause of this stress and emoness...
but I hate being weak, you know that right?
wish you can send me some word of encouragement..
But what am I?
Just another fan that you chance by...
Still, love you one whole lot that I can't let go.
weakness, hate it.

time, aren't you running a little to hard?
4 months and 10 days... That's all I have left.
What will I make out of this..
what will I achieve
what will I obtain
what will I contribute..
It all starts here, right at this second.
go on... run.....
because I'm running together with you.

I've been so busy

and actually still is...

Thing with the albums...
And members being an annoying prick asking for their albums to reach before Friday.
That's right, because we don't have 208 albums to handle.
because we don't have have schools to attend to...
because I don't have a project to bury my head in...
because we only have you who bought the album.
because we have all the time in the world.

Thing with the project
I'm getting no where with it
because when I work on it
I think about albums
I think about fees
I think about timetable
I think about how to build the model
I think about WHAT THE HELL MY SUPERVISOR WANTS

Thing with my life
humans who thinks the world must revolve around them
humans who thinks that the world is always against them
humans who has two faces (or more)
humans who has brains stuck in their asses
humans who just blatantly blames others
humans who can't stop sticking their noses off other people's business
humans who demands more than they deserve
JUST PLAINLY HUMANS

I'm stressed...
I need to see and meet things and people like these....
I have a right to rant.

To me, my life comes first for now...
Catering Services will be provided at a later date.
Have a problem with that....
Talk to the hand~
/shuffles away

똑같아

I've wrote three stories of you

And all three of them

The you in it is the same as the you in my story....

Destiny.......... I'll continue in believing it too.

사랑해~

Seperti Syurgamu

Aku pernah alpa
Aku pernah lupa
Aku pernah terlena
Dibuai cahaya indah
Situku jadi megah
Tanpa bersusah payah
Tanpa aku menduga
Ku dalam leka

Rupa-rupanya cahaya itu hanya sementara
Suram mengambil tempat
Tersurat sudah tersirat
Yang ringan menjadi berat
Tamparan begitu hebat
Sekarang baru ku sedar
Setelah menempuh sukar
Ku mula berfikir setiap saat

Tolong sedarkan diriku
Dari noktah kian luput
Aku bimbang jumpa suatu waktu
Dan tak kenal siapa
Ku berharap kepadaMu
Berikan ku satu rasa
Yang memberi erti hidup ini
Harum indah seperti syurgaMu

Sekarang baru aku sedar setelah segala
Yang ku tempuhi liku-liku hidup yang menjalar
Suasana mencabar
Setiap daya akan ku pusatkan untuk
Untuk mencuba

Cuba mencari cahaya itu kembali
Biarpuan aku terpaksa menempuhinya sekali lagi
Kali ini aku akan lebih berhati-hati
Walapun aku terpaksa berlari atau meniti

Ku harungi dengan cekal
Pengalaman jadi bekal

Tolong sedarkan diriku
Dari noktah kian luput
Aku bimbang jumpa suatu waktu
Dan tak kenal siapa
Ku berharap kepadaMu
Berikan ku satu rasa
Yang memberi erti hidup ini
Harum indah seperti syurgaMu

Oh engkau yang menentukan
Apakah aku ini yang terakhir untuk ke syurgaMu

Tolong sedarkan diriku
Dari noktah kian luput
Aku bimbang jumpa suatu waktu
Dan tak kenal siapa
Ku berharap kepadaMu
Berikan ku satu rasa
Yang memberi erti hidup ini
Harum indah seperti syurgaMu

Credit : Here

Getting out of or getting back in my system

I'll not dip my head in the world a little more

just the surface

But you look perfect as always

hmmmm........

This is Goodbye, for a little while....

My heart can't really take it...

But I think I need it...

Till next time, love~ <3

Keep doing what you love and be happy...

You are best at it =)

and you look best when you have that kiddy smile on you

Be well~~ =)

As much as I want to

I want to lock myself in the room and not come out
But I ain't Heechul
What is life?

*Stupid, crying again*

I still can't find it

"Know your aim. Don't get distracted. Keep your heart above all things. Keep out negative influences in your life. Walk by faith*" - Jaeson Ma

depress doesn't even cut it........

You brought smiles

It's the hardest to let you go.....
I can't even think of a day that I have to let you go....
You are the hardest to forget...
but like they say....
It's inevitable...
on your part and my part...

I'll miss you a lot when that time comes...
I love you~~~

*I wish I can write Korean*

I'm a proud fan

They are at 3rd on the Billboard World's Album Charts~~
Did I say how proud I am..... since the very first day they come back with this album...
I seriously have not been a prouder fan...

It makes it harder to let go...
It makes everything harder...
But I'm still proud...

like I said...
Let me love Super Junior forever...

Let me...........

Let me be that delusional fangirl for once

"Thanks To"s are spreading everywhere
Well, today is the 3rd and the albums hit the stores
I was fine while reading the absurdity of Kyuhyun's brain
The amount of nicknames for people he knows and words that make no sense
aaaand his starcraft friends with all the flamboyant character names...
drive every translator in this ELF fandom crazy

However
I got hold of Ryeowook's
and his love for the members are evident in his words
Kangin was mentioned, Hangeng was mention, Kibum was mentioned
All with such love, my heart is aching

Then I got hold of Donghae's
OTLed because it was not a Thanks To but a freaking ESSAY
so I waited for the translation........ and then I got it.
the pipe burst and the tears starts coming down
"After 5jib we will not be releasing anymore Super Junior albums temporarily."
This line just rings around my ears for like ever.
together with my tlist, we are all a mess.
trying to suck it in because I have order calculation to do...


It has never hit as hard as how Heechul hinted through his tweet the other day
Heechul hinted
Donghae said it right at your face
I know......I knew that this is the last one for I don't know how long
I knew it since SS3.....
I knew it since even then...
But now it is here....
The beginning of the end....


As I am trying to wrap my head *again* at the pending end
my friend tweeted
"It's not the last. 믿을게요."
"If we don't have faith in them who will."
I'm going to hold on, Super Junior is here..... will be here
I'm going to accept everything that's going to happen in this promotional period
and enjoy this last few months


This will be my closure
as I'm leaving too.


I love you, Super Junior....
Thank you for all the joy that you brought my life
I'm glad that I stay with you guys till this day
And I'll wait for the day you guys make a comeback~
Be it after 10 years..... I'll still wait for it.
*Jungsoo and Heechul will be 40 OMG~ and others late 30s LOL*


우리는 슈퍼주니어에요~
우리는 엘프예요~
우리는 하나~ 영원히~
사랑해요~

The first step to the end is here

That I believe
I'm crying again
What is life.....??

I pray that you are not too hard on yourself
I pray everyday
Please...
even on teasers I can see your tired eyes, so seriously.
Don't be too hard on yourself

Being in that show isn't the best idea, I rather you have more shows on T3M

Thank you

I thought I do not have it in me already
When I go to choir and do nothing
I thought I do not have the right to say anything anymore

To know that people still view my music critique that high like once before
I am grateful
Makes it harder to let go
but still grateful =)

Thank you~ you might not know how that affects me =)
but thank you~

August

Hi, you the last month of the 3rd quarter of the year.
I'm not ready for you but who can stop time.
6 months left to be fully in Malaysia.......

Just got my project title 2 days back
Design a main drainage system for a housing developement
Drainage is not my forte but I guess that is where you learn stuff about things that you don't know
Not going to aim for best project, but trying to learn what I can on Hydrology that I hate so much

I've change my view in life
Maybe knowing that I'm not going to be here any longer is a good thing
but thinking about both parents that have to work their ass out at an age that supposed to be enjoying life
just in order to let me have a brighter future than they do just saddens me
This here brings in the government that eats money and made RM such a small currency that I despise on

I don't want to be selfish, I'm pretty content with life.
I won't complain much even if I were to study degree in Inti
But having bigger dream, bigger goals
I wouldn't mind stepping out when my dad urges......
Korea can wait, in 10 years time I'm pretty sure it'll still be there, but my dad might not be


Crying while writing this isn't a good idea
But left with only 2-3 months to apply for the Uni and 6 months to live this life I have here
and after this 6 months we are all saying farewell
It's hard not to
I wonder how my sister felt when she left around 6 years ago

Hopes, Dreams and Goals..... I have them aplenty...
But when the fear is so huge and it comes together in the name of both parents
You doubt whether your courage is enough to overcome it.

Regrets I have none of them and I don't believe regrets help you in life
But
If my dad were to pass away without his foot stained by New Zealand grounds, his lungs filled with New Zealand air, his stomach contaminated with New Zealand food.
I think I probably won't be able to forgive myself.
And my mom......... She just needs to know that I'm able to fund both of them~
That's how simple mom's mind is.

Living my life to cater the people that matters to me
I'll feel pretty much content with life
That's all I need to remember

이젠 끝이야

Looks like I'm going to do a lot of things....... for the last time.

instead of always being selfish
I'm doing things for people....
For the people that matters.

I just hope I'm never too late.

To life, may we live the way we desire.

Subtle messages~

"… everything isn’t over till everything is okay ...." - Drinking Therapy by karmapolis@sj-world.net


Did I say how much I love this fic??

Purple Egg appears again when there's a show

Your first show of the last three shows =)
Do well, travel save~~
I know these shows means a lot to you....
I wish I even seen one, but still one of your fans flew from US to see you...
Just thought that you should know~ hehehe~

규타녕~!~! 화이팅~~ <3

For every read, I catch a different thing~

“We all have different perceptions on what friends can be. For me, the standard is quite… high. Honestly I can count people I consider friends on one hand.” -quote from Drinking Therapy by karmapolis@sj-wold.net-


This speak volumes about my life.....


I love this fanfic more and more every time I read it~

달팽이

집에 오는길은 때론 너무 길어 나는 더욱 더 지치곤 해
문을 열자마자 잠이 들었다가 깨면 아무도 없어
좁은 욕조속에 몸을 뉘었을때 작은 달팽이 한 마리가
내게로 다가와 작은 목소리로 속삭여줬어

언젠가 먼 훗날에 저 넓고 거칠은 세상 끝 바다로 갈거라고
아무도 못봤지만 기억속 어딘가 들리는 파도소리 따라서
나는 영원히 갈래

모두 어딘가로 차를 달리는 길 나는 모퉁이 가게에서
담배 한개비와 녹는 아이스크림 들고 길로 나섰어
해는 높이떠서 나를 찌르는데 작은 달팽이 한 마리가
어느새 다가와 내게 인사하고 노랠 흥얼거렸어

언젠가 먼 훗날에 저 넓고 거칠은 세상 끝 바다로 갈거라고
아무도 못봤지만 기억속 어딘가 들리는 파도소리 따라서
나는 영원히 갈래

내 모든걸 바쳤지만 이젠 모두 푸른 연기처럼 산산히 흩어지고
내게 남아있는 작은 힘을 다해 마지막 꿈 속에서
모두 잊게 모두 잊게 해 줄 바다를 건널거야

언젠가 먼 훗날에 저 넓고 거칠은 세상 끝 바다로 갈거라고
아무도 못봤지만 기억속 어딘가 들리는 파도소리 따라서
나는 영원히 갈래


***Let me listen to this forever***

It stays

I guess it won't go away as soon as I want it too
It's alright....
It's not like I've never gone through this a thousand times before.

Balance

You are one hard ass to handle....
You bring unnecessary frustration that I seriously don't need..
Guess watching me crying to sleep is fun...
Feeling sorry to people that I should not have...

The more this year is coming to an end, the more I can't say no to you.
I might succumb to your words again....



I hate myself.
Fuck this shit.

Things that does not change

The Earth that spins

The Moon that circles it

The Sun that keeps shining

and

how Kyuhyun is always here~

I pretty much owe my life to him....

Thanks once again....

You saved my sanity...... again~ =)

The day my PC dies

A faithful Sunday night~
After a couple of fruitless tries to install AutoCAD to my PC....
my PC rejected it because the processor doesn't have a thing called SSE2..
Blasted beans.
Dismantled the whole thing and kidnapped my sister's PC.
She doesn't have a monitor anyway~

ANYWAY~
My brain is dead from all this installing crap...
Then I rushed my last assignment and report today.
Also trying to rush my project title to submit by this Wednesday, but my supervisor is SO hard to reach.
Doing Main Drain by the way..... =_=
The things that you hate will always find you....
Fluid *creeps*

I'm just real dead tried.......

Positive news~
There are 41 orders of 5th album..... *claps* *throws confetti*
41 orders total of 67 albums~ =)
It will be a horror to pack and send them out, but the more the merrier... =)
and donations are very WOW worthy.. =)
considering RM is an all time low, KRW and USD is rising now --- should have did it when USD was low
But still happy~ =)

There's a few more weeks to the comeback...
it's sad, yet happy thing...
Well, if you follow anything Super Junior you might have already know Jungsoo and Heechul isn't at all young.
Their military service is due, both of them said next year should be it.
Both are waiting to receive some kind of letter shipping them to some place.
But anyhoooooo, take responsibility when it is due...
Didn't say I won't going to miss them, but I probably won't cry over it... =)
It's a good thing...... and Super Junior still lives. =)
Anyhooooo~~~ can't wait for the comeback...

Also, together with their comeback, the fandom is in uproar again.
I hearby say......
Please do not believe in rumours that has no proper source what so ever....
***plainly STOP BELIEVE IN CHINESE SITES***
There's where 80% of the rumours starts.
the other 20% from Twitter, Tumblr and facebook.
Sungmin dyeing his hair Neon Green is the most absurd I've heard,
and you are not gullible to believe but plain stupid.
He is on Jack The Ripper....... WHAT NEON GREEN HAIR?
You must not be a fan to begin with. LOL~
Also~~~~ People who doesn't read what SJW wrote about the album sales, please don't spread false rumour about SJW. Thank you~ It's getting pretty annoying.

Anyway~~~~ People have a good life, and..... oh well, behave.

There's always a reason.....

...to feel exceptionally uneasy.

The emptiness that was knocking on to my door.
has broke the hinges and barged in.

For a moment, I'll just feel hurt.
just a moment, then I'll regain myself =)

Empty

This feeling of emptiness, creeps slowly into the room that I'm in.

Knocking on the door to a place I would not want to let it in

Recently distant is all I felt, I don't know why.

A phase, some calls it, I wish I call it too.

November is closing in, that application form I must fill in.

Offer letter with condition is what I get.

22 years of life is what I lose.

I point my fingers at this excuse, but was it the right one?

Even I don't know, so who would understand?

Distant is self made, or it appears one time to test, the strength and bond of each other.

Even with this, I felt I am far away from where I am.

Because I'm in a good mood

I should blog something when I'm in a good mood because I have too many emo post

and then I came here and stare at the screen for 5 minutes and don't know how to continue

LOL~ Me being happy is so hard.
anyway~
I've switched rooms...
From my favourite small room with a window above my bed (good place to emo)
to a large room with my sister. =_=

Don't know if this is a good thing~
But I guess we shall take it as it comes~ =)
On to staying in a shared room, after 4 years of living alone in a room. LOL~ =D

rbgus~

That smile of yours...
Please stay that way~ =)
Please don't be too hard on yourself during IS2..
tkfkdgo~

讨厌

就是讨厌你
My never ending wish for you to grow up is REALLY never ending
Gosh...

I miss you
you awkward purple egg

I see you having a great and awesome time during MT
you are always happy when you are busy with The Three Musketeers =)

Though you only have three stages
I hope you have fun and enjoy every stage
I know you would

Still....
I miss you....

Drifted apart

There are times like these
that I felt that we are no longer that close knit group of friends that we were
There are times like these
that I felt that we should let go what we were holding on to so dear
There are times like these
that I felt that we are hoping on to a thin fine line of forever that doesn't exist

There are times like these
that I felt that I have wronged you guys and my selfish self have got to apologise in order to go on

I'm sorry for all the things that I've done and said to hurt, annoy any of you guys...
I hope there are more days together, more happy times together.
Though you might not know what it was, or you know that there are things that I did to you.....
I hope you guys accept my sincere apology.

I just have to do this, because I felt distance, distance that I don't want it to be there.
and the change.................

WTF - this says it all right, somehow in this world of impossible, there's still hope of forever.
To you guys..... =)

In life, there are always two

one of the opposite.

You can look at the world as a physical object
or you can view it as a soulful place.

You choose your way,
at the beginning of things,
and most of the time, you won't get to change it halfway through.

Because as this world changes and important things sets in,
at the end of the day,
I hope I can learn more things about the heart than securing a place at The Top.

This world is a show.......
but even a show has at least 20% truth in it.

The heart should feel sadness, joy, anger, resentment, frustration, gratefulness and many other things.
Do not shut them out.
Otherwise, in life, there won't be two anymore.

What reality is..........

I wish this is a fairy tale instead of a nightmare.

Yesterday night

Yesterday night was awesome...
Wasn't really affected much by Dongha's suicide during the concert unlike SS3...
But I somehow was reminded about it when I looked at Kyuhyun
But most of the time, he is far from me...
You know the SJM line up...
Kyuhyun stands to the right most of the time with Mi and Hyuk...
And I was at the left side of the stage.
While during his solo, he didn't walked out to the outer stage just stood at the middle and sang.
Only saw him towards the end of it when he finished singing Super Girl they switched places to stand..

Henry was at our side the most...And it was awesome.
Henry's like 3 meters away from me...
Tried really hard to raise the SJW Henry towel when he looked over to our side..
and he is every bit of awesome.
He waved, he smiled, and tried to look for placards.
I'm pretty sure he is because he kept scanning our side of the crowd.
And he performed Off My Mind...
Malaysian crowd is the first one to listen to it live. =)
and it was awesome...

Zhoumi was awesome too....
He sang 3.00am by Z-Chen
LOL~ a friend of Zhoumi, a Malaysian Singer.
Skinny, tall, need some fat in him and awesome features... =)
Awesome voice he has... really.
can lum sei see him sing.

Sungmin didn't do a solo, which is pretty sad....

you can check my RTs coz I RT-ed a lot.
other than that yesterday night is awesome.
they had on very heavy make-up though.

<3 Kyuhyun =)

Things that are worth reading, read them.

Things that are worth doing, do them.

Things that are worth remembering, remember them.

Things that are worth loving, love them.

As long as what you do is worth it to you, 

your life is worth living.

Never let others say otherwise,

never let others' voices cover yours.

기분이 좋지 않아요

Pretty sure this show is going to be affected.....
Like how I was affected by the Japan Tsunami that I didn't very much enjoy SS3...
Sigh~

Everybody's writing Chinese blogs..... T-T

It's today... =)
Your 5th Anniversary =)
Will you write something...... miss you pretty badly.
and also Happy 5th Anniversary. =)
Hope you have another 5 more.

Happy 5th Anniversary =)

5 years......
And I still remember the time when you said three years is an amazing feat....

Wasn't there when you stood on stage and sang with Super Junior for the first time.
Wasn't there when people hated you being added into Super Junior.
Wasn't there when you guys won your first award.
Wasn't there during that trying times of your accident........
But I'll be there until you say "Let's stop singing and enjoy the retirement"
Let's hope that doesn't come early... ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ


Like they say..
To the infinity and beyond~
Let's keep running.

Love you always~
우리 조규딩~ =P

Fiction

As absurd as it sounds,
Sometimes I wish you are real.

But you are just fiction too................
그래도, 널 난 사랑해.

"Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny." - anonymous

어쿠스틱

They call it a 씨네+뮤지카....

a movie with music as the core subject....

I call it an inspirational but yet discouraging (on my part) movie...

a movie with chasing after your dreams as the core subject....

I watched this movie without sub...

Understand the most trivial things but guess all the other important parts...

Yet I think I like this movie a lot.

Give it a try without subs, and use their acting and add your own words and interpret it with your style.

You might be surprise at what you find with this movie..

a little teaser~ 

meaningful quote: 음악 들러면 폭탄소리가 안 들러

*****I FOUND THE SUBS TO PART 2 AND 3, but I can't find the first one T-T

Writing has left me alone

I know the beginning
I know how to build it
I know the climax
I know how to end it

BUT WHY THE HELL I CAN'T WRITE THEM OUT...
I wrote 4 chapters and not ONE chapter I like.
I started this fic last year!!!

Did my brain just stopped working after that one fic that I finished???
Is 42500 words my limit???
This is REALLY frustrating..

Talking about double standards

you guys get A+ for being double standard......

deep down you know it, but because of all the facades that you have to pull...

you just look past it....

Whatever man. WHAT! EVER!

Sarcasm is the best thing that happened in this world

Let's just pile his schedule up to the brim, because he is not lying in the hospital or collapsing on stage and also he isn't exhausted and overworked.




No..... he is not.




He doesn't matter.

Caledonia has been everything I've ever had

Crying buckets because of this song

What was use to be

I miss the times when it was only about the music..........................

and now it's how one artist has that much fans......
how one is relevant another is not......
how its fandom is more awesome than the other.....
and how hallyu is everywhere and everything else doesn't matter......

I can't agree with you guys, and I try to tell you guys indirectly, just so we can spare our thin friendship.
Yet you guys smear it at my face as if I care shit about it.

Sigh~ who cares right, all everyone cares is about themselves.
I'm no one................. well, so are you.

It was used to be the music and how they affect us........ used to be...

I'm pretty sure that blogspot ate my previous post. Why are you like this blogspot?

This describes my life

Top 10 Myths about Introverts

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.

This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.

Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.

Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.

Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.

Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.

On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.

Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.

Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.

Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.

Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.

Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.

Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.

Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.

Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.

Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.

Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.

Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.

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