Going to miss it a whole lot

I do not have a close encounter.
Nor do I get to see them upclose either.

But I'm going to miss this feelings.
This little feelings that makes you heart jump.
I'm going to miss it a whole lot.....
when I'm forced to leave it behind.

Loving you hurts so bad

It just hurts~~~
and for the fact that me hurting and complaining will not change a thing hurts more.

Of course......

안 이해해요....

Your voice is everywhere~ =)

I don't want to know~
I don't need to know~
Don't tell me...
I don't want to feel like this anymore.....
I have only 4 months~
Let me love them like I want to love them for 4 months~
That's all I'm asking.

Wide open wound that doesn't hurt

Clock is ticking, undeniably..
They say the process takes more energy then enduring the true result
No one has ever lied when it's about the end of something

I'm alright, I'm fine
I'm taking it all in like one should
things that hurts, I'll leave them behind
things that brings joy, I'll cherish them

Life is good~
Life is here~
Life is now~
=D

The End is just depressing

Two things that I don't want, will never want to see the end of it...

Super Junior

SS Gang

Two things in my life......
that must not end......

My heart....... T_____________T
/crying endlessly watching Strong Heart/

And the things I see, Super Junior and SS Gang have so much in common...
A non-coloured, doesn't change friendship, let's go on till forever...
With SS Gang...
And Super Junior.

My very own catering service

Stupid init?
I say "It's for the love...."
but it is still stupid...
enduring human beings with their brains in their asses.
but with a slight gratefulness.... I'm happy.
being shallow....

Who the hell are you?
Recently, I've been thinking of you.
was happy that you sent texts to me..
but what crap..... people send text to me all the time asking about Inti bus services...
Obviously not going to look anymore into it..
I have no rights to.

Am I cut out for this?
Sometimes I just feel like throwing them all away...
staring at it for so long but can't make out what was studied...
It's frustrating.... in so many levels.
Studied for 6 FULL semesters...
graduating in a few months time...
But can't even make out the details of a drain...
useless piece of shit.

Are you still here for me?
Looking at you right now...
sometimes makes me more emo than I should..
Guess the idea of can't have you is more hurting than I thought it to be.
Can't cry like I used to...
Sometimes I want my own room back.
Maybe that's the cause of this stress and emoness...
but I hate being weak, you know that right?
wish you can send me some word of encouragement..
But what am I?
Just another fan that you chance by...
Still, love you one whole lot that I can't let go.
weakness, hate it.

time, aren't you running a little to hard?
4 months and 10 days... That's all I have left.
What will I make out of this..
what will I achieve
what will I obtain
what will I contribute..
It all starts here, right at this second.
go on... run.....
because I'm running together with you.

I've been so busy

and actually still is...

Thing with the albums...
And members being an annoying prick asking for their albums to reach before Friday.
That's right, because we don't have 208 albums to handle.
because we don't have have schools to attend to...
because I don't have a project to bury my head in...
because we only have you who bought the album.
because we have all the time in the world.

Thing with the project
I'm getting no where with it
because when I work on it
I think about albums
I think about fees
I think about timetable
I think about how to build the model
I think about WHAT THE HELL MY SUPERVISOR WANTS

Thing with my life
humans who thinks the world must revolve around them
humans who thinks that the world is always against them
humans who has two faces (or more)
humans who has brains stuck in their asses
humans who just blatantly blames others
humans who can't stop sticking their noses off other people's business
humans who demands more than they deserve
JUST PLAINLY HUMANS

I'm stressed...
I need to see and meet things and people like these....
I have a right to rant.

To me, my life comes first for now...
Catering Services will be provided at a later date.
Have a problem with that....
Talk to the hand~
/shuffles away

똑같아

I've wrote three stories of you

And all three of them

The you in it is the same as the you in my story....

Destiny.......... I'll continue in believing it too.

사랑해~

Seperti Syurgamu

Aku pernah alpa
Aku pernah lupa
Aku pernah terlena
Dibuai cahaya indah
Situku jadi megah
Tanpa bersusah payah
Tanpa aku menduga
Ku dalam leka

Rupa-rupanya cahaya itu hanya sementara
Suram mengambil tempat
Tersurat sudah tersirat
Yang ringan menjadi berat
Tamparan begitu hebat
Sekarang baru ku sedar
Setelah menempuh sukar
Ku mula berfikir setiap saat

Tolong sedarkan diriku
Dari noktah kian luput
Aku bimbang jumpa suatu waktu
Dan tak kenal siapa
Ku berharap kepadaMu
Berikan ku satu rasa
Yang memberi erti hidup ini
Harum indah seperti syurgaMu

Sekarang baru aku sedar setelah segala
Yang ku tempuhi liku-liku hidup yang menjalar
Suasana mencabar
Setiap daya akan ku pusatkan untuk
Untuk mencuba

Cuba mencari cahaya itu kembali
Biarpuan aku terpaksa menempuhinya sekali lagi
Kali ini aku akan lebih berhati-hati
Walapun aku terpaksa berlari atau meniti

Ku harungi dengan cekal
Pengalaman jadi bekal

Tolong sedarkan diriku
Dari noktah kian luput
Aku bimbang jumpa suatu waktu
Dan tak kenal siapa
Ku berharap kepadaMu
Berikan ku satu rasa
Yang memberi erti hidup ini
Harum indah seperti syurgaMu

Oh engkau yang menentukan
Apakah aku ini yang terakhir untuk ke syurgaMu

Tolong sedarkan diriku
Dari noktah kian luput
Aku bimbang jumpa suatu waktu
Dan tak kenal siapa
Ku berharap kepadaMu
Berikan ku satu rasa
Yang memberi erti hidup ini
Harum indah seperti syurgaMu

Credit : Here

Getting out of or getting back in my system

I'll not dip my head in the world a little more

just the surface

But you look perfect as always

hmmmm........

This is Goodbye, for a little while....

My heart can't really take it...

But I think I need it...

Till next time, love~ <3

Keep doing what you love and be happy...

You are best at it =)

and you look best when you have that kiddy smile on you

Be well~~ =)

As much as I want to

I want to lock myself in the room and not come out
But I ain't Heechul
What is life?

*Stupid, crying again*

I still can't find it

"Know your aim. Don't get distracted. Keep your heart above all things. Keep out negative influences in your life. Walk by faith*" - Jaeson Ma

depress doesn't even cut it........

You brought smiles

It's the hardest to let you go.....
I can't even think of a day that I have to let you go....
You are the hardest to forget...
but like they say....
It's inevitable...
on your part and my part...

I'll miss you a lot when that time comes...
I love you~~~

*I wish I can write Korean*

I'm a proud fan

They are at 3rd on the Billboard World's Album Charts~~
Did I say how proud I am..... since the very first day they come back with this album...
I seriously have not been a prouder fan...

It makes it harder to let go...
It makes everything harder...
But I'm still proud...

like I said...
Let me love Super Junior forever...

Let me...........

Let me be that delusional fangirl for once

"Thanks To"s are spreading everywhere
Well, today is the 3rd and the albums hit the stores
I was fine while reading the absurdity of Kyuhyun's brain
The amount of nicknames for people he knows and words that make no sense
aaaand his starcraft friends with all the flamboyant character names...
drive every translator in this ELF fandom crazy

However
I got hold of Ryeowook's
and his love for the members are evident in his words
Kangin was mentioned, Hangeng was mention, Kibum was mentioned
All with such love, my heart is aching

Then I got hold of Donghae's
OTLed because it was not a Thanks To but a freaking ESSAY
so I waited for the translation........ and then I got it.
the pipe burst and the tears starts coming down
"After 5jib we will not be releasing anymore Super Junior albums temporarily."
This line just rings around my ears for like ever.
together with my tlist, we are all a mess.
trying to suck it in because I have order calculation to do...


It has never hit as hard as how Heechul hinted through his tweet the other day
Heechul hinted
Donghae said it right at your face
I know......I knew that this is the last one for I don't know how long
I knew it since SS3.....
I knew it since even then...
But now it is here....
The beginning of the end....


As I am trying to wrap my head *again* at the pending end
my friend tweeted
"It's not the last. 믿을게요."
"If we don't have faith in them who will."
I'm going to hold on, Super Junior is here..... will be here
I'm going to accept everything that's going to happen in this promotional period
and enjoy this last few months


This will be my closure
as I'm leaving too.


I love you, Super Junior....
Thank you for all the joy that you brought my life
I'm glad that I stay with you guys till this day
And I'll wait for the day you guys make a comeback~
Be it after 10 years..... I'll still wait for it.
*Jungsoo and Heechul will be 40 OMG~ and others late 30s LOL*


우리는 슈퍼주니어에요~
우리는 엘프예요~
우리는 하나~ 영원히~
사랑해요~

The first step to the end is here

That I believe
I'm crying again
What is life.....??

I pray that you are not too hard on yourself
I pray everyday
Please...
even on teasers I can see your tired eyes, so seriously.
Don't be too hard on yourself

Being in that show isn't the best idea, I rather you have more shows on T3M