똑같아

I've wrote three stories of you

And all three of them

The you in it is the same as the you in my story....

Destiny.......... I'll continue in believing it too.

사랑해~

Seperti Syurgamu

Aku pernah alpa
Aku pernah lupa
Aku pernah terlena
Dibuai cahaya indah
Situku jadi megah
Tanpa bersusah payah
Tanpa aku menduga
Ku dalam leka

Rupa-rupanya cahaya itu hanya sementara
Suram mengambil tempat
Tersurat sudah tersirat
Yang ringan menjadi berat
Tamparan begitu hebat
Sekarang baru ku sedar
Setelah menempuh sukar
Ku mula berfikir setiap saat

Tolong sedarkan diriku
Dari noktah kian luput
Aku bimbang jumpa suatu waktu
Dan tak kenal siapa
Ku berharap kepadaMu
Berikan ku satu rasa
Yang memberi erti hidup ini
Harum indah seperti syurgaMu

Sekarang baru aku sedar setelah segala
Yang ku tempuhi liku-liku hidup yang menjalar
Suasana mencabar
Setiap daya akan ku pusatkan untuk
Untuk mencuba

Cuba mencari cahaya itu kembali
Biarpuan aku terpaksa menempuhinya sekali lagi
Kali ini aku akan lebih berhati-hati
Walapun aku terpaksa berlari atau meniti

Ku harungi dengan cekal
Pengalaman jadi bekal

Tolong sedarkan diriku
Dari noktah kian luput
Aku bimbang jumpa suatu waktu
Dan tak kenal siapa
Ku berharap kepadaMu
Berikan ku satu rasa
Yang memberi erti hidup ini
Harum indah seperti syurgaMu

Oh engkau yang menentukan
Apakah aku ini yang terakhir untuk ke syurgaMu

Tolong sedarkan diriku
Dari noktah kian luput
Aku bimbang jumpa suatu waktu
Dan tak kenal siapa
Ku berharap kepadaMu
Berikan ku satu rasa
Yang memberi erti hidup ini
Harum indah seperti syurgaMu

Credit : Here

Getting out of or getting back in my system

I'll not dip my head in the world a little more

just the surface

But you look perfect as always

hmmmm........

This is Goodbye, for a little while....

My heart can't really take it...

But I think I need it...

Till next time, love~ <3

Keep doing what you love and be happy...

You are best at it =)

and you look best when you have that kiddy smile on you

Be well~~ =)

As much as I want to

I want to lock myself in the room and not come out
But I ain't Heechul
What is life?

*Stupid, crying again*

I still can't find it

"Know your aim. Don't get distracted. Keep your heart above all things. Keep out negative influences in your life. Walk by faith*" - Jaeson Ma

depress doesn't even cut it........

You brought smiles

It's the hardest to let you go.....
I can't even think of a day that I have to let you go....
You are the hardest to forget...
but like they say....
It's inevitable...
on your part and my part...

I'll miss you a lot when that time comes...
I love you~~~

*I wish I can write Korean*

I'm a proud fan

They are at 3rd on the Billboard World's Album Charts~~
Did I say how proud I am..... since the very first day they come back with this album...
I seriously have not been a prouder fan...

It makes it harder to let go...
It makes everything harder...
But I'm still proud...

like I said...
Let me love Super Junior forever...

Let me...........

Let me be that delusional fangirl for once

"Thanks To"s are spreading everywhere
Well, today is the 3rd and the albums hit the stores
I was fine while reading the absurdity of Kyuhyun's brain
The amount of nicknames for people he knows and words that make no sense
aaaand his starcraft friends with all the flamboyant character names...
drive every translator in this ELF fandom crazy

However
I got hold of Ryeowook's
and his love for the members are evident in his words
Kangin was mentioned, Hangeng was mention, Kibum was mentioned
All with such love, my heart is aching

Then I got hold of Donghae's
OTLed because it was not a Thanks To but a freaking ESSAY
so I waited for the translation........ and then I got it.
the pipe burst and the tears starts coming down
"After 5jib we will not be releasing anymore Super Junior albums temporarily."
This line just rings around my ears for like ever.
together with my tlist, we are all a mess.
trying to suck it in because I have order calculation to do...


It has never hit as hard as how Heechul hinted through his tweet the other day
Heechul hinted
Donghae said it right at your face
I know......I knew that this is the last one for I don't know how long
I knew it since SS3.....
I knew it since even then...
But now it is here....
The beginning of the end....


As I am trying to wrap my head *again* at the pending end
my friend tweeted
"It's not the last. 믿을게요."
"If we don't have faith in them who will."
I'm going to hold on, Super Junior is here..... will be here
I'm going to accept everything that's going to happen in this promotional period
and enjoy this last few months


This will be my closure
as I'm leaving too.


I love you, Super Junior....
Thank you for all the joy that you brought my life
I'm glad that I stay with you guys till this day
And I'll wait for the day you guys make a comeback~
Be it after 10 years..... I'll still wait for it.
*Jungsoo and Heechul will be 40 OMG~ and others late 30s LOL*


우리는 슈퍼주니어에요~
우리는 엘프예요~
우리는 하나~ 영원히~
사랑해요~

The first step to the end is here

That I believe
I'm crying again
What is life.....??

I pray that you are not too hard on yourself
I pray everyday
Please...
even on teasers I can see your tired eyes, so seriously.
Don't be too hard on yourself

Being in that show isn't the best idea, I rather you have more shows on T3M

Thank you

I thought I do not have it in me already
When I go to choir and do nothing
I thought I do not have the right to say anything anymore

To know that people still view my music critique that high like once before
I am grateful
Makes it harder to let go
but still grateful =)

Thank you~ you might not know how that affects me =)
but thank you~

August

Hi, you the last month of the 3rd quarter of the year.
I'm not ready for you but who can stop time.
6 months left to be fully in Malaysia.......

Just got my project title 2 days back
Design a main drainage system for a housing developement
Drainage is not my forte but I guess that is where you learn stuff about things that you don't know
Not going to aim for best project, but trying to learn what I can on Hydrology that I hate so much

I've change my view in life
Maybe knowing that I'm not going to be here any longer is a good thing
but thinking about both parents that have to work their ass out at an age that supposed to be enjoying life
just in order to let me have a brighter future than they do just saddens me
This here brings in the government that eats money and made RM such a small currency that I despise on

I don't want to be selfish, I'm pretty content with life.
I won't complain much even if I were to study degree in Inti
But having bigger dream, bigger goals
I wouldn't mind stepping out when my dad urges......
Korea can wait, in 10 years time I'm pretty sure it'll still be there, but my dad might not be


Crying while writing this isn't a good idea
But left with only 2-3 months to apply for the Uni and 6 months to live this life I have here
and after this 6 months we are all saying farewell
It's hard not to
I wonder how my sister felt when she left around 6 years ago

Hopes, Dreams and Goals..... I have them aplenty...
But when the fear is so huge and it comes together in the name of both parents
You doubt whether your courage is enough to overcome it.

Regrets I have none of them and I don't believe regrets help you in life
But
If my dad were to pass away without his foot stained by New Zealand grounds, his lungs filled with New Zealand air, his stomach contaminated with New Zealand food.
I think I probably won't be able to forgive myself.
And my mom......... She just needs to know that I'm able to fund both of them~
That's how simple mom's mind is.

Living my life to cater the people that matters to me
I'll feel pretty much content with life
That's all I need to remember