Malaysia, A year older, doesn't mean you are more mature than last year

      I had never encountered any racism threats or anything other than a little name call, quote Gila Babi unquote, from a Malay girl I accidentally bumped into at a Ramadhan food fair last year. I never believed talks about people, mostly Malays I must say, hated the other race because we were, quote from foreign country unquote, when we were ACTUALLY born and bred in our home country, Malaysia.

     All this racial issues, I just laugh them off, thinking maybe the news writers have a lot of time in their hands and wrote a few BS to create havoc in our, I definitely can say, quite peaceful country. I have plenty of friends of other races, we get along well, well enough to turn a blind eye to racism issue in my own homeland that had been, and still is getting worse by the second.

     Malaysia, Happy 53th Birthday to you.

     But my dear old Malaysian mates living in this same country with me with other Malaysians, whether you are a Malay, Chinese, Indian or a mix or even an immigrant now a citizen, sometimes it doesn't mean "the older you are the wiser you will be". You see, after about 50 years, the racist issue had REALLY just took off a few years back. I'm just asking IF...... if it is such a big issue, why wasn't this solved a long time ago, like some 50 years ago. Because when people gets older, our greed gets bigger, we want more, we want to prove something to the world, we get a little more selfish, this is how human works, we can't help it.

     Yes, we can't help it, but God/Allah/Buddha/Devi/and the God or Gods of your own religion, THEY gave US a brain, but, here's the catch, WE need to make IT function. It's a natural thing, when it's hot, the brain tells you not to touch it, the brain tells you "DANGER". So I'm just asking EVERY SINGLE one of you Malaysians, look at the world now, is racism doing anyone good? All we need is take a minute or two to think about how this racism affects one and another.

      We need to change this mindset of ours, because we, we are all Malaysian. We are not Malay, we are not Chinese, we are not Indian. We are Malaysians. Living in our birthland, Malaysia. That, my fellow Malaysians, couldn't be changed. At the end of the day, we are all still Malaysian, striving for the same thing, a better life. =)

      If only everyone of us, Malaysians, use their brain to think the right thing, this 1Malaysia thing doesn't even need an effort. =)

So now after all the seriousness, anyone care to grab Nasi Lemak, Chau Keu Tiaw and Chapatti  for dinner?

*That's the beauty of a multiracial country =) Just for show~~~*

In this life

People ALWAYS try to prove one thing or another

But ask yourself this "What are you trying to prove?"
"After you have proved it, what does that do you?"

If it's nothing, then it's not worth to spend your time trying to prove it to yourself for closure.

That's one thing I would do

Normally I don't take things for granted

Not the physical things (those I take for granted... a little....)

The things that you can't see
The things that you can only feel

When someone helped me
I swear to God I'm going to try to help him or her back

But when you can't help that one particular person
That you want to help
What do you do?

Support, whether he or she will know it
you continue to support, no matter what.




The worst feeling is unable to help when you want to help so much

FML I don't even know how or why did I let it become like this.
It's killing me.

I wish I can hug him and say,

"It's okay. All is going to be alright."

"A man with one watch knows the time; a man with two is never sure."

Parker (Leverage)

Kyuhyun is making me love Mandopop

He chooses THE BEST Chinese song to sing in a solo

Last year's Yuan Liang Wo was awesome

This year's Sing Bu Liao Qing is just as awesome

Both songs are two of my favourite Karaoke songs. LMAO!!!

*Jam Hsiao must be his idol =P Kyu, we have something in common there /bricked

Distancing obviously did no good

Nope...

Obviously keeping a distance did no good...

For two weeks it didn't subside...

No, no good at all...

Because I love him MORE everyday...

Dear Almighty

*scoff*

Want us to talk with you

Try gaining some respect first

Then we will see

I live by these words

"One mustn't criticize other people on grounds where he can't stand perpendicular himself"

Mark Twain

Very Inspiring...

ELF: Oah~~~~Need to go to school tomorrow ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ…………………………..ㄱ- But I haven’t finished my homework ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Kyu: Then just do it at school (tomorrow)


Yes, Kyu.... I'll listen to you... /FACEPALM

Despite what I normally say

I'm still a girl

And a girl wants what every girl wants

A Fantasy

You can ask me anything here... =P

http://onioning.com/purplehill89

LOL!
I'm bored...
So I did this thing.
Go... Ask me anything~~~~~~ =)
I'll answer... REALLY!!!

Because my hands were dirty

I don't have pictures to show

But I just went back to preschool today =)
Playing with Sand and Water
While doing Soil Lab
Who wouldn't want my place

And the bonus
You get the perfect moisture content for the Liquid Limit and Plastic Limit =)
And you still get to play around =)
With no lecturer or lab tutor

A LOL-able encounter with Almighty

This is what I wrote yesterday night...

well, it's SMTown last night....

I mean if you DID see all the picture of Kyuhyun....

You would want him too, no??

*He looked FLAWLESS in the presscon*

You get what I mean now??????????

So my dearest Almighty called and asked me whether I have a boyfriend..

WELL, THIS IS NOT A FIRST.

Me: Hello?

Almighty: What you wrote this time?

Me: Wrote what?

Almighty: On facebook.

Me: What did I write?

Almighty: You wrote it to Yi Ka Che?

*I think the HIM she meant was God*

Me: I didn't write anything to Yi Ka Che in facebook.

Almighty: Then why did it appear in my wall?

Me: ERM... because I wrote something on MY wall and we are friends on facebook so you can see it.

Almighty: Who are you writing it to?

Me: WRITE WHAT EXACTLY? and I didn't write anything to anyone.

*LMAO, she doesn't/NEVER go to the point. EVER*

Almighty: Your status ah........

Me: *speechless* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.....

Almighty: Is there a boy chasing after you?

Me: No. No one is chasing after me. I'm here in my room. *trying to be a smart aleck*

Almighty: Do you like anyone? Do you have a boyfriend? You must tell these to me.

Me: I don't have a boyfriend, Mxx. I already have a husband,
Almighty: You must tell me if you like a boy or there are people liking you.

Me: ......................... I don't like anybody and I don't think anybody is liking me either.

Almighty: Then who are you talking about?

Me: My husband la. I told you about him before one gah.

Almighty: The artist ah..?? Aiyah, I say cannot like this one ma.

Me: *sweat gao gao* But I'm talking about him now ah. So what to do?

Almighty: Next time must tell me geh.... If not then I don't talk to you.

Me: *sweat more* =.= ah... then we don't talk la. I'm fine with it.

Almighty: then the next status what is it about? *Recite Status 2*

Me: You want me to tell you everything?

Almighty: Tell me la, then we can be friends ma.

Me: *scoff* That's what it is. Don't think so much about what I wrote and read it. It is that. No need to read between the lines.

*other info omitted, if not you'll think I'm an indolence child, when I actually am.*

Almighty: Okay la, tell me next time ah. got boy or not. 

Me: *roll eyes* *kinda pissed*

Almighty: Bye.

Me: Yeah. Bye.

It was a smart move to ignore Facebook all this while, since my life is Twitter instead of Facebook now.

But because I thought I've ignore Facebook for far too long.

And all my friends are there, thought I want to tell them I'm still alive.

So I just wrote that two status.

And that's the time that she feel like being funny.

and the thing is, it's never funny.

No.

Okay fine, here's to avoiding Facebook forever.

Friends, you know where to fine me.

Just know that Facebook is not the place.

SS Gang Scattered Over Malaysia

This is where we are now

But you all know that we are all in here....

Love you guys~~~~ =)

This is so much love

Short yet, Kyuhyun's voice is wow......

Seohyun makes a great partner, their voices blend quite well....

AND THIS...

I LOVE THIS PICTURE~~~~~

SEOKYU~~~~ =D

SO MUCH LOVE~~~~~~~~

I fell in love again

I don't think I can get over him

Ever

Lost

When I feel lost
I've forgotten what to do
I didn't know what to do

Without a word
and he is always there to remind me to come back to Earth
to stop thinking so much and do what has to be done
his voice is like my own drug
with it anything is alright

Without a word
and she is always there to remind me not be so hard on myself
that she'll always be there even when she's so far away
without a sentence about what we felt
everything is okay

Sometimes people don't know how much one affect another
Even with both of them miles apart from me
I think I can still live on
Nothing is too hard
It only takes time

I won't be all cheery but this is a start

Too deep, can't get out

Speaking words but not saying anything

That is going down

and me

I'm going down with it

To you with love

I have no fancy words to say,
neither can I give you fancy stuff.

But there's one thing I want to say.

When life gets you down,
if you call out to me,
I'll be there.

Love you much, Soulmate.

Happy Birthday. =)

Ponder-ables

"Some friendships die because they aren't moving forward. They die from stagnation or plain neglect. You promised to call but didn't. You knew it was your friend's birthday, but were too busy to celebrate. When we're busy, we only do what comes easy, and even good friendships aren't always easy. That's why it can seem that the best friendships break precisely when we need them the most." ~ Frances (Philippines ELF)


"In dreams you don't need to make any distinctions between things. Not at all. Boundaries don't exist. So in dreams there are hardly ever collisions. Even if there are, they don't hurt. Reality is different. Reality bites. Reality, reality." ~ Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart


"Don't just be inspired; be moved." ~ LShasha (YKC)


"Nothing worthwhile ever comes easy." ~ LShasha (YKC)


"Go on and trust yourself that you're gonna take your dreams, where they've never been.." ~ Hilda (Indon ELF)


"#YouLostMyRespect by living without a purpose, Looking for others to stand up for you & not striving to be the best you can be everyday" ~ Some tweeter from the trending topic


"Discipline brings improvement to the quality of your life. To reject discipline is to be a fool, cuz only fools think they are always right" ~ Jaeson Ma




Someone tweeted these... And I just have to repost them... 
Some have credits some don't... I'm sorry.

Thought of the day

When you don't have the proper upbringing
It is the smartest choice to bring yourself up by learning from others
on what to do and what not to do

How you interpret it
it is of your choice

But one day when it's time for you
The right track comes your way
And you won't have to worry whether you'll make it or not

P/S : To kids who doesn't have tres cool/good parents, stop complaining/whining.
Listen and look. It's true that the mouth talks lesser, the mind works more. =)
Have good days my fellow mature/immature earthlings
We all have our moments

I don't want to sound VERY BIAS

But I think I said this before and I think I'll say more of this...

I LOVE ALL Kyuhyun's cover better than the original..

Lee Seung Gi - Please (Original)

Kyuhyun - Please (cover)

I really want to run to the MC and scream...

SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET HIM FUCKING SING!!

SO THAT I CAN RIP IT OUT AND PUT ON REPEAT!!!

LOL...

(It is on repeat with or without the MCs bickering anyway)

P/S : The only song that he covered that I love both the original and his cover is Brown Eyed Soul's "Memories as much as love"

Because no one beats the almighty Brown Eyed Soul... LOL!

It's been long since I set my feet here

Many things happened over the weekend and yesterday and today...

Sunday - Two Korean friends came over to our place.
Monday - woke up at freaking 4.30 am to fetch one of the Korean friend to LCCT. class got canceled when I was in Uni waiting for class when I should have slept. went to Putrajaya, sent the last Korean friend to KLIA after dinner.

Will write an entry on them =)

But I must say... Why am I in Comp lab at this hour..???
Because the SUPPOSED Surveying lab was canceled.
And I slept like 1am last night woke up at 6am.
and I've been sleep deprived SINCE Sunday.
and I only have a class at 2 if this lab is canceled.
So please just kill me now to put me away from this sleep deprived agony.
Because everytime I walk around school I felt like collapsing.
LOL!!!

And one thing though.
I don't feel like sleeping in Library.
I felt like just online here in my zombie state until lunch then class at 2...

I JUST NEED A BED AND MY PILLOW!!!!!!

A song on repeat even before it was officially released

희망은 잠들지 않는 꿈

Hope Is A Dream That Doesn't Sleep

credits : RaiBaka

It doesn’t matter if I’m lonely. Whenever I think of you
A smile spreads across my face.
It doesn’t matter if I’m tired. Whenever you are happy
My heart is filled with love.

Today I might live in a harsh world again.
Even if I’m tired, when I close my eyes, I only see your image.
The dreams that are still ringing in my ears
Are leaving my side towards you.

Everyday my life is like a dream.
If we can look at each other and love each other
I’ll stand up again.

To me, the happiness of those precious memories
Will be warmer during hard times.
For me, hope is a dream that never sleeps.

Like a shadow by my side you always
Quietly come to me.
To see if I’m hurt, to see if I’m lonely everyday
With feelings of yearning, you come to me.

Even if the world makes me cry, I’m okay.
Because you are always by my side.
Like dust, will those memories change and leave?
I’ll keep smiling to ease my heart.

Everyday my life is like a dream.
If we can look at each other and love each other
I’ll stand up again.

To me, the happiness of those precious memories
Will be warmer during hard times.
For me, hope is a dream that never sleeps.

No matter how many times I stumble and fall
I’m still standing like this.
I only have one heart.
When I’m tired you become my strength.
My heart is towards you forever.

So I swallowed the hurt and grief.
I’ll only show you my smiling form.
It doesn’t even hurt now.

I’ll always hold on to the dreams I want to fulfill with you
I’ll try to call for you at the place I cannot reach
I love you with all my heart.

Credits
English Lyrics: cookiemonkey of princekyu
PLEASE CREDIT IF TAKING OUT

I have got nothing to say. The lyrics is all.

Delusional, I am.

I told myself to stop

Obviously I told myself not to bother....

But at the back of my mind...
It is still bothering me...

I shouldn't have known...

Kyuhyun has the best comeback EVER...

Fan: "Donghae-ah! I love youu~"
Donghae: "I love you more, girl!"
Kyuhyun: "Ya hyung! Stop being player -.-"


Kyuhyun~~~~ Love you~~~ =D


*I still can't rub that off my mind T.T

Just what I need in a bad early morning.

Fan: ”What’s oppa’s religion?”
HeeChul: ”Against Siwon.”
KyuHyun: ”Against Heechul.”
HeeChul: ”WHAT DID YOU CALL ME?”
KyuHyun: ”Hyung~”


WHY SO KYUTE~~~~~
Bad morning turn happy morning... =)
*giggles*


Don't fight in public please... =D

I'm a freaking nutcase

So I woke up early today at 6.30 prepared myself and drove all the way to my Uni....
reached around 7.40am...
Guess what I found out...
No classes...
Because it was lab class...
and first week = no lab classes...
Joy huh...

I wasted 2 hours driving two and fro from Subang to Nilai...
not forgetting petrol...
not forgetting toll fees...

I was in two states in less than two hours...
but after knowing I have no class...
I didn't think of going to KLIA/Putrajaya to have fun...
I didn't think of Cyberjaya/Serdang to visit friends...
All I did was being pissed off and drove back home...

And when I saw a flying plane in front of me....
I teared...

I'm going to be such a Donghae...
it's not funny....
I have who else to blame but me...

This...... so much.....

I want to be that lady in the picture...
I want to do this.....

Stand in the rain and taste it....

So that I can breathe too...

Bring me along in your fictional life...

Maybe then....
I can write my own happy ending....

P/S : I don't even know why I cried...

I'm not a U-Kiss fan

But this........

........is amazingly hilarious...

OMG.... laughing non stop....

I knew that like half of the group speaks perfect English....

but when I find videos of Alexander speak Cantonese...

It's AWESOME.....

because now in Korea there's so many artist who knows English... LOL!!!

By the way...

He really does know Cantonese... really fluent.... VERY Hongkish...

There are other videos but I like this video the best...

He said this in Malaysia's U-Kiss Fan meeting...
Alexander : yi dou yau yan sik gong gong dong wah mou ah...??
*crowd scream*
Alexander : wah... shu fuk sai... lei ji dou ngor yen jor gei loi... ciu siong gong yeh... dan hai gong ngum dou...
*members standing beside him clueless*
Alexander : I'm going crazy crazy... *while dancing*
*fans screaming and members : WOW... "
Alexander : Thank you... ah... ngor shu fuk sai lah... ngor gong yun la... okay... bye bye....
IN A VERY HONG KONGISH WAY... LOL...

ok.... me here... SIGN OUT~

Taking an extra subject...

is going to kill me...
But people around me seems to love me so much they don't want me killed...
LOL...
Here's a little scene replay...


On the phone with almighty...

Me : Mee... Can I take one extra subject?
Almighty : Why not....
Me : Then I apply ge la?? I need you to write a letter for me to support me oh...
Almighty : You write for me I'll sign...
Me : Oh...
Almighty : Why do you want to take one extra subject?
Me : hmmmm... Because I want to get out of this course as fast as I can??
Almight : ..........................
Me : I'll go talk to HOP first....
Almighty : umm...
Me : Bye.
Almighty hangs up.....

So I got the (another pink) appeal form for the (one) extra credit hour...
filled it and went to see my HOP...
Who recognised me as the mentor who her mentees never came to find her...
Great start?? Not...

HOP : You want to take an extra subject?
Me : Yea
HOP : Why?
Me : I want to finish this one course earlier by a sem... I've checked and we are going to go for an extra semester... Because of Inti's ever changing systems, students from May intakes (my intake) needs one extra semester to finish everything...
HOP : hmmm..... *flips her file* You are??
Me : Lau Ji San DCE (says ID number)
HOP : Oh... you are the girl that I called...
ME : hehehe... Yeah...
HOP : so how are the mentees?? Did they call you?
Me : oh... *awkward laugh* No... They didn't...
HOP : Ah... You didn't check the mentees list?
Me : Oh... The one in CCC? ah... no...
HOP : *looks at me with weird eyes*
Me : ......*smile*.......
HOP : You got a B- in your last semester... and you have another B- in the Jan session... Can you cope with an extra subject this sem?
Me : I... wouldn't know if I never tried? *smiles*
HOP : are you a last semester student? *flips the enrolment book*
Me : No...
HOP : You have 3 more semester... you can take MPW on your next semester when you have subjects with lesser credit hours then it'll won't be a strain for you...
Me : ah..... *tries to explain the extra semester that we have to take again..... in vain....*
HOP : You take this MPW subject next sem yea...
Me : *smiles* okay..... *smiles* Thank you...
Left dejected...

FYI to HOP...
all I am hoping is to graduate asap...
Getting A's is not my priority...
I need to graduate soon then maybe I don't even need to face Engineering EVER...
And delaying an extra semester means I need to graduate late...
I'm still just a Diploma student, HOP...
And I'm old...

I'm going back tomorrow

going back to that pit of fire...
and to torture myself for another 17++ weeks...

What is this...??

Someone did ask me this question....
Have you ever thought that you are going to live your life like now when you were younger...
Funny enough...
The answer was yes... I did see myself studying Civil Engineering...
and my friend said "Ah... Your dream came true..."
I scoffed... And I'm not going to correct her...
I mean... what for...
It's not like everyone should know about my everything...

anyway...

You know how your mother brainwashes you when you were younger...
Sad to say, she did brainwash me quite well...
I'm not going to say that I'm not finding it cool that I'm studying in a male dominant course...
It's cool...
It's even cooler when you walk around campus holding a drafting bag when you are a female...
It's even COOLER when you get to roll your eyes over boys who are too precious... in a bad way...
and that you were the only girl in class and your teacher favours you...
It's even better when some of the boys don't even dare to talk to you...
*Don't mind me... I find it awesome when I'm able to scare people off (especially guys)....

But still...
a hell hole is still a hell hole...
and I'm walking in, in every tick of the clock...
I'm walking steadily in...
whether I'll come out miraculously alive...
The answer is always 2 weeks after my finals exam...

and before that day...
I'll be that quite girl in class...
who does all her assignments on time...
who sticks earphones into her ears most of the time...
who eats lunches alone...
who has a fetish towards the computer labs and the library because she just got nowhere to go...

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