OC2012: Passion

I'm not a Christian, going to a Christian conference was an eye opener I must say.
I wouldn't say I didn't learn anything, I wouldn't say I learnt everything either.
No matter how clueless you are about things I believe there will be at least 20-30% of things that gets to your brain.
And some things get to my brain, they did.


Passion is the fire and Conviction is the Fuel
One of the things that slapped me right at my face was how they talked about Passion and Conviction
You can have passion for things, a lot of things,
You want to do this, you want to do that.
But your passion can never be fulfilled if you have no conviction.
It'll just be a fire that at the end of it will slowly die because it has no fuel to keep it burning.

It makes me think about how a lot of the things that I want to do hit a brick wall
and I didn't climb up to smash the brick wall so that I can continue going.
I always fall short.
I hid at the bottom of that brick wall, took pity of myself.
There is no conviction to back my passion
So I never get to see what lies behind that huge tall brick wall
and the fire died and was never lit again

I told myself
Passion must be fuelled with conviction so conviction you should have
It won't be easy but slowly I'll learn to have conviction
I'll learn to have passion to continue to burn in my life
So that I get to see what lies behind that brick wall that test how strong my fire is burning
I will burn that brick wall down too

Life doesn't happen to you, it happens through you
well, this to be honest reminded me through that new Leessang song 행복을 찾아서
That song appeared at my trying times and I want to thank God how this happened.
I'm someone who goes back to music when my head doesn't stop rolling about
and most of the time songs come to me at the strangest times
like how 행복을 찾아서 lyrics reminded me about life
and how in my Form 5 life Jin Ee gave me Still, Praise You In This Storm that still make me cry when I listen to them now
Music and Lyrics to me are important things~ =)
***those doesn't explain the topic***
Life doesn't happen to you, it happens through you..
Questions like "Why am I here in this dreaded place.. Why am I doing this?"
throw them in a bin, flush them down the toilet.. BURN THEM.
Things doesn't happen to you...
But they happen through you..
Be the light in that dreaded place.
Be the solution of problems
If you want change, then be the change.
If you think that it is pointless, it will be pointless
If you think that this isn't what you want, it will be what you don't want.
You are not there because you suddenly want to punish yourself
You are not there because you suddenly want to feel useless about yourself
You are there hoping to learn something
You are there hoping to affect people for the better
You are there hoping to train yourself up for whatever is there in the future
Life doesn't happen to you... my friend..
Life happens through you.
Do not think that what you do now is pointless.
It's training for the future my friend~


So that both points have pretty much lump what I learnt on Saturday and Sunday
There are definitely more but I've forgotten some or too personal to share

I pray that people can have hopes and dreams
I'll never stop praying for that

Pray for Michael

Original Source. 이동해미니홈피
English Translation by. Euodsie and Gaia at SJ-WORLD.NET
Take out with full and proper credits, do not add yours in.
May be translated into other languages, but credit the original translator.

Title: Pray for Michael…
Written on 2011.4.1 at 03:13 AM

Hello this is Super Junior Donghae. I’m currently working hard with schedules in Taiwan. Working hard with the members for album promotions, as well as filming a brilliant challenge with Siwon...working hard for drama activities. At 12:30am today after daily Bible study with the members ended, Siwon and I were on our way back to our room when we saw a Chinese man drinking alone. So when we asked him why he was drinking alone...he said he was just diagnosed with laryngeal cancer. Then we had a conversation for about an hour and a half. On April 3rd the doctor will let him know whether he can survive or not by receiving surgery. As a result he said he is too sad, strained, exhausted and afraid. Siwonie and I told him to stop drinking, to put down the cigarette he was holding in his hand, and we prayed together. Michael does not know God and said that trying to pray was useless. He said that since he’s dying already he will spend his days drinking and smoking. But Siwon and I told him to come to church along with us to have good thoughts only and throw away the bad ones through praying. Michael said such sweet words, good thoughts... Anyone could tell such stories. Although he was very thankful, he said that Siwon and I were not him and would not know how he felt either, and that we were not in his position so we could never understand. This is why I told him about the story of my late father. My father was diagnosed with cancer too. For 3 years while he was getting treatment my father too found God and wanted to become God’s son. (He was really a Christian.) Here’s where I lied... I said he’s still living healthily... And that (Michael) should pray and stop drinking and smoking. Michael’s eyes were filled with so much fear and he was in a state where he didn’t even have much strength. So I wanted to give Michael hope, and truly wished Michael would be healthy in the future and that we could become friends who could have meals together, hence I thought of going ahead with the white lie that could give him hope. Michael is one who achieved really a lot and who also received recognition for having worked very hard. He kept telling us to go back and rest but Siwon and I didn't go and kept holding a conversation. With us looking at him, after all Michael threw his drink and also the cigarette away. Michael was so thankful to us for telling him such a good story and delivering a message that gave him hope and he told us he will carry on through praying and having good thoughts. As expected his steps were heavy... he said his wife was at home and that he was too late so we told him to come to our house to sleep. Michael said it's okay and that he was too happy because he met such two good friends and Super Junior and he told us that he will invite us for dinner and to express his thanks. I think that if we had passed him, just said hello and gone by perhaps Michael would've had worse thoughts and he'd be thinking more negatively than before. The saying that even crossing paths is fate...is obviously true. We are proud to be God's sons who can give someone hope and courage. Although everyone lives their own life if we look in front, and behind us a bit more at ease and stretch out our hands we could be able to really pass down big help and happiness. Just because you do not know someone do not pass them by but greet each other with a smile instead and if they don't say hello first, go yourself first and if you greet them with a smile the other party will probably like it and I think you could even become two good friends. I'd like to ask you to pray together. For Michael ...April 3rd is the day he receives the results. I beg you to please pray for Michael to be healthy and for light, not darkness, to be able to shine on his path. Also because this entry is in Korean ...I don't speak English...I'm not fluent in Chinese either. If amidst those who see this entry there are people able to translate it please translate this writing so that one becomes ten and ten become a hundred and so many more people will see this entry and pray for Michael for at least 30 seconds even. I think that success, money, and things alike are not important. I think importance lies within other things... Today too I am thankful to God who forged me and once again made me feel. And I'd like to say thank you to Siwon who makes time to guide the members and allow them come closer to God day by day. Good Night Michael...

Original Source. 이동해미니홈피
English Translation by. Euodsie and Gaia at SJ-WORLD.NET
Take out with full and proper credits, do not add yours in.
May be translated into other languages, but credit the original translator.

There is still humanity - A story of a man in Japan

http://maki-yoyoyaoi.tumblr.com/post/3809963801/im-crying

Please read the story at the given link, you won't regret it.

May you rest in peace, brave man

/tearing endlessly

Heartache

is it possible to cry for people and a land that I have no link to?

Japan, my prayers are with you.
Have faith, stay hopeful, never give up.

tears just won't stop forming and heart just won't stop aching

I should stop looking at pictures and reading news