I hate this feeling...
I just hate it okay....

New Life

With a refreshed mind
A new goal
A new target
A new dream
I will work hard for it

Though I may falter while achieving it
Help me stand up
Help me reset my mind again

Towards a new life...
Let's go~~~ 아자....

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." - Matthew 11:28-30 NIV

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." - 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Self destruct

Subtle self destruct.....

non self inflicted self destruct.....

얼마나 기쁜니까..... 그말을 들렀어....

Misunderstandings

Everyone misunderstands everyone.

Everyone is misunderstood.

Explanations are needed.

But no one is willing to provide descriptions.

Everyone continues to misunderstand.

Everyone stays misunderstood.

Who is willing to shed some light to the darkness?

Will you?

From the land down under

Hellllooooo~~
I'm already in Australia~ =)
I wished I have pictures to post...
But nah~ I don't have much...
Next time I'll post a beautiful picture of my new school..

Nothing much to say really...
Just that here is so much alike Malaysia..
only the sun has burnt me till light brown..
it's the first time I'm actually putting on sunblock every time before I go out.

I'm going out to the City on Friday...
The city is a gorgeous place.. =)
I went there once yesterday..
tall buildings and wide concourse here and there..

I'm also only an hour away from the beach...
Which is pretty much my dream...
I LOVE THE BEACH..
So being so near it is awesome. =)

Anyway~ Here is awesome...
Miss everyone at home~
Have a great day.

The thought of leaving will never set in before 24 hours

I started packing 1 week before my flight

Procrastinated and messed up the packed stuff within the week

Repacked them all and more within 3 hours the night before

I guess if it isn't last minute, the progress will be either slow or not moving at all
Last minute is a catalyst
Last minute is a time where you realise "Damn, I've got to do this"
Last minute is where everything sets in and shouts at you
"Hey, look here. You have got to face this no matter what. No more running away."

Ask me whether I'm reluctant to leave, I'd say "I don't know... are you fond of leaving your comfort zone?"
Ask me whether I'm excited to go, I'd say "Hell yeah, the furthest place I've gone to is Singapore."
Balance.... There you have it...

These two months flew by like a bullet train
Just a lot more happening in between
Nothing is slowing down
Life isn't slowing down either
Everyone's got to move forward

So the next time I'm writing a blog
it won't be in Malaysia
I'll be in Australia
but hey, it is still Earth...

People who missed me, we are just a flight away...
The old life back in hometown, hey, we are just a flight away...
The buddies that are more than just buddies to me, hey, we are just a flight away...
My family, we are just a flight away...
To my youngest sister.... we are just a flight away...

I'm glad that I'm not somewhere far unreachable..
I'm glad you guys aren't too...

To life, that only moves forward and has no regrets...
Let's clank our glasses and drink to it~ =)
Goodbye~ and Hello...

Giving up on rationality
Giving up on humanity

Giving up on life itself... =_=

So many questions....
Not one single answer.

thoughts of tonight

have I helped to change someone's life for the better without me knowing

Is all I think about tonight

It looks like I'm not better than just a human living in an empty shell

I realised today

that I'm just that.

Guilt

Stress

more guilt

and yet I don't think these will push me

God, please help me to like the course that I'll be spending my parents money on for the next two years.

First post?

2012?
I don't know...
It just doesn't feel like something to be celebrated.

















I still feel like disappearing.

Numb............ ?

I made myself numb to so many feeling...
I no longer expect
I no longer wish or hope
I no longer feel angry or sad

But why am I so clingy to life nowadays...

I definitely do not like this feeling.

But rest in peace, Ana...
You are in a better place now~

DONE!!!

My diploma ended today and it is just bliss...
came home and watch House and played games of course..
This semester is so hectic that I am glad that it is now all over....
had a last meal with classmate and it was fun~

I've nothing to say really...
except...
I'm done with Diploma~~~~~

If I love kpop because of its songs..
I wouldn't be only indulging in Super Junior
And love other non idols...

So please don't judge my delusional state of mind
Because anyone can dream
so let me dream mine.

No one can push away the feeling of emoness..

LOLs at the title...
But it is true...
To me at least.

Para - Para - Paradise

When she was just a girlShe expected the worldBut it flew away from her reach soShe ran away in her sleepand dreamed ofPara-para-paradisePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradiseEvery time she closed her eyes

When she was just a girlShe expected the worldBut it flew away from her reachand the bullets catch in her teethLife goes on, it gets so heavyThe wheel breaks the butterflyEvery tear a waterfallIn the night the stormy night she'll close her eyesIn the night the stormy night away she'd fly

and dreams ofPara-para-paradisePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-ohShe'd dream ofPara-para-paradisePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradiseOh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh

lalalalalalalalalalalaAnd so lying underneath those stormy skiesShe'd say, "oh, ohohohoh I know the sun must set to rise"

This could bePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradiseOh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-ohThis could bePara-para-paradisePara-para-paradiseThis could bePara-para-paradiseOh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh
This song is so meaningful~~~ Love it~~ =) Well, it's Coldplay~ =)

Understood

Hey Tablo...
I finally understood what you meant by lonely...

Don't Care

You know...
One thing very scary about me that no one knows...
or they know but do not take it seriously is...

If I don't care, I really.... like really don't care..

That.... is one of the most dangerous part of me...
Laugh all you want...
I did flunk Form 6 Physics and  previous semester's Highway and Traffic.

Found this in kpopsecrets.tumblr.com

This is one of the most beautiful thing I've read.

Fandom should have more of this kind.... =)

Two things I'm not fond of

Crowded area
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and loud people....

Doesn't mean that you are right if you speak louder... jsyk~