이벤입아이매콘트라딧마이스엘프

버트앗트어나이트라이크딧스

아이투위쉿섬원허그스미투스맆

Have you felt your heart contract and expand at the same time?
I don't even know whether that's how you describe it...

Pitiful

모르다

저 사람 몰라
Pitiful

ㅠㅠ.ㅠㅠ

=(

ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Looks like I will never get over you

There was one period of time I hated you, slightly

So I needed time out

Distance came, distance go

I felt nothing but only missing you

너는 지금 여기 있는데
다 괜찮아요 =)
사랑합니다~ <3

*this is so embarrassing IDE*

As if they still need to prove the stupidity of this country

Before I start ranting about these articles from Berita Minggu (Page 1 Page 2) here, please do read them as to have an insight of what I'm going to say.

I was pretty furious after reading it, thinking how can this be an issue when there are so many things going on in this country that actually worth our time writing a two page article about it. Then I remembered, this is Malaysia for Pete's sake, so my friends and I were making fun of of this topic and how irrelevant it is.

After the laughters we had, I got down to business and read that article again, thoroughly this time and I want to pen down my thoughts and opinion in this. So, let me write out my retorts that I have for the writer Rashiqah Ilmi Abd Rahim and the professors and also my opinions. I'm a civilised person, but I guess I might jump down from my apartment building because I read about someone ratting about the non-existence trend in Kpop fans. *cough cough let the civilised retort begins*

1. The article is so generalised that us, kpop fans, feels degraded as a person, as if we don't have a brain to think for ourselves, that we need to be monitored, that we might just jump out of the building just because we can.
2. The article degraded Malaysia, its music scene and its people. It is as if us, Malaysians, do not have a backbone that we will follow anything Korean when we are into Kpop. It is as if to say that the musicians in Malaysia are not putting their work out there or they are not good enough because Malaysians aren't very appreciative towards our own music scene.
3. The article also degraded Korea as a country. No one in this world wants suicide as a trend. Kpop artists are human too, they too felt bad for people who commit suicide, their government are taking note of the numbers of suicide cases. Malaysia, as a foreign country, has no rights to say that Kpop artistes is the synonym to suicide. Malaysia has no right, what so ever, to call ANYONE synonym to suicide.
4. A lot of Kpop fans find Kpop as a stress relieve, as a feel good activity, so I don't understand the part about being too into Kpop will make you prone to suicide. It is not like fans are going to jump off a building after an awesome concert. I see an influx of suicide cases and the reason behind is relationship failure, so why isn't a two page article written about the seriousness of it? Is it that IT IS happening, Malaysia turned a blind eye on it, because I must say, Malaysians are VERY good at turning blind eyes to serious and important issues.
5. No one forced us to like anything, whether it is Kpop or the Malaysian Music scene. If you do compare the entertainment industry in Korea and the entertainment industry in Malaysia, both are very different. So, should you blame Malaysians, Koreans, our Malaysian programmes, Korean programmes, Malaysian artistes or Kpop artistes?
6. As to the money-spending, I hereby stand and say, I spent over RM500 buying albums and DVDs. I'm pretty sure that Malaysia is trying to curb piracy, and we are seriously contributing our part in this section. Ask any Kpop fans, you will be pretty proud of us how most of us don't buy pirated albums or DVDs. So what were you saying about spending too much? Smart consumers manages their money well, don't go "ALL KPOP FANS" on us, it is baseless.
7. I've never heard of fans robbing banks, stealing from others and harming others to get money to spend on Kpop goods. But I heard of many drug addicts and alcoholics doing so, so why a two page article about harmless buying but not so much for a very serious social problem? Where does your priorities lie in writing articles?
8. If you did your research properly, dear writer, you'll know how a lot of Kpop artists help build the best in each individual. Almost all of them talk about respecting each other, have faith in God, love your parents, do not hate, and have manners. I'm pretty sure these are good values that we need to practice and not for you to shun upon.

So dear writer, dear professors whom contributed to this article, I don't know where did your assumptions came from, I don't know why would you look down on us as if we are little kids and we don't have a brain to know what's right and what's wrong, we are so much better than that. Just because we like something that is taking over the world, doesn't mean it is a bad thing. I've met some very awesome people, I've achieved better things, I'm learning a new language, I'm learning a new culture, we are very united, how are these bad things?

To all journalists, writers, media groups, please, don't try to find fault in something that does not concern this whole world about. Kpop is neither a social problem nor is it a lifestyle people are pursuing, it is just like any other entertainment business in this world, just like Mandopop and the American music out there, so why make it special?

It will be awesome if this country concerns itself with important things, like our rotten public transport, rotten policies, rotten almost every aspect except for its wonderfully delicious food. =)

here I'll sign out : a proud ELF =)

*write a comment below if you have an opinion =)

If you guys can ignore the mainland already.

T-T

Seriously, what is good there.

They don't love you.
They don't love you at all.

Purple egg, I miss you. T-T

미안해요... 정말미안합니다... 내가못해요... 정말미안해요....

西風的話

I love their voices so much~

/crying

Surprised...... but still skeptical.

I think I know what the fortune cookie is telling me now

I'm pretty surprised actually

but believing it is another thing.

But I think I must keep this:

You skills will accomplish what the force of many cannot. =)

I can be delusional

But I know what's reality

So what do you care.......

I can run to him if I want to

Show me one awesome guy maybe I'll stop being THIS delusional.

Heart skipped a beat

but I'm glad you are fine~

Tests and Exams

I don't know since when I started not to care about you
But I know this is not the first time I sit a test/exam that I didn't even study
Only bringing what little knowledge I know

Looking at Highway now
It's like sitting for my Form 6 Physics
and somehow I still feel nothing towards it

This is the sad life I'm living.

Only 2 days~

But make full use of this two full days okay~ =)

Rest well~

100 facts about me

Saw people flooding my timeline with this and decided to make one too
but now, not going to trend that #100factsaboutme or spam people's timeline
So HERE it is~ My crazy facts that doesn't really have much base~

1. I have 3 annoying but awesome sisters, there used to be days were I think how would we be if we have a brother but I don't anymore.
2. I have 6 AWESOME and IRREPLACEABLE wives, and I love them to bits.
3. I love the numbers 7 and 13... *NO, it has nothing to do with anything Super Junior, 13 is my birthdate and I consider that as my lucky number since primary school *I'm prety sure SJ hadn't even formed yet, and Jungsoo, the pervert/creeper, is still oggling over girls, Heechul is going around breaking girls heart, and Kyuhyun is being all smart and getting that president award for Mathematic Olympiad thingy* and 7 is the number of people in my gang that is going to stay together forever, 7个人 is our favourite line *when this gang is formed (slowly), I only know who's Henry; Zhoumi isn't even in the picture yet, it's in 2007 people~ They were still doing DON'T DON!!! and Henry is still awesomely playing the awesome violin and butthurt people are hating that he is awesome*
4. WTF has another meaning with my 7个人 gang =)
5. I love to confuse people on whether I'm straight or "crooked".
6. I'm a pretty messy person, but when I clean, I clean EVERYTHING till it shines.
7. I brush my teeth to prevent myself from eating things that I shouldn't be eating.
8. I love small room with a window - my current room
9. I hate studying, doing assignments and lab reports. But throw me anything Maths I'll finish all for you.
10. I'm a picky drama/movie watcher.
11. I know nuts about Kpop before 2007 and in 2007 I was introduced to TVXQ and now a die-hard fan of Super Junior, but listens to a lot others.
12. I'm REALLY quiet in front of strangers, and only open my mouth when needed.
13. I love reading, I can spend hours on it *even to the point to neglecting studies (not that I'm proud) and sleepless night* if I find something interesting.
14. I'm DEAD afraid of blood and wounds, my imaginations scared the shit out of me when I see them, but I donate my blood twice every year, and isn't afraid of my own wounds.
15. I love Yoo Jae Suk
16. I love Super Junior
17. I don't think I can love any other artist more than I do Cho Kyuhyun
18. I love to keep coins in a piggy bank, and count them at the very end of the year and put them into the bank. *it's not a part of saving*
19. The average money I use per week should be around RM60
20. The most expensive piece of clothing that I bought with my money is a RM150 Converse light checkered shirt which is awesomely authentic.
21. I spent most of my time online.
22. I use to write fics but stop at the moment because I have no inspiration to write in the mean time
23. I would be studying English and English Literature now, if my mom would let me accept that offer that I got from one IPTA that I didn't apply at all. *It was through my STPM, and I submitted one but not that subject and not to that school.
24. I position my hair when I sleep so that the next day when I wake up, my hair doesn't run everywhere.
25. I seldom comb my hair.
26. I don't eat much snacks.
27. I love apples and watermelon
28. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE dark chocolates *I'll marry the person who promises me daily supplies of dark chocolate and divorce him if it wasn't fulfilled. =P*
29. I always loiter around in the net even though I said I'll go study/do assignments.
30. I love black, purple of any shade (just not the one that's too near the category pink), maroon, navy. basically anything dark and near the colour black.
31. I love being alone
32. I hate being weak
33. I love sunglasses
34. I love lying on bed just to listen to random music being played (that's also how I found Super Junior)
35. I love to rant..... A LOT
36. I day dream A LOT
37. I sometimes mix dream with reality and think that I did something but in reality I didn't, because it was in my dream.
38. I don't really like cute stuff
39. I am a passive spazzer, I don't spazz in real life like how I do everywhere in the net
40. I love ballads
41. I love bass voices over anything (ask my school choir ㅋㅋㅋ)
42. Procrastinate is my middle name
43. in most Kpop group I really like the one that doesn't have much fame at first then all of a sudden they are famous like nobody's business and they have awesome voices (e.g. Kyuhyun -- he was a nobody when he first joined Super Junior, and he was hated by fans but he got REALLY famous after Sorry Sorry and EVEN more famous during Bonamana, Junsu -- He use to be the no one because Taec, Jay, Nickhun are rolling, but now he is famous for his Satoori in variety shows and his awesome voice and produced and wrote songs that ACTUALLY made it into a famous OST and it is awesome *this have to thank One Way especially Chance*, There are more but the others doesn't have much fame out of Korea anyways~)
44. I was called The Voice of Heaven in the time when I was in my school choir because apparently they say I sing like I would sing a hymn/lullaby and it's really soothing. LOL!!! most of the high notes were bear by me *shyselfpraiseshy* After 3 years and more of no practice, my throat got weak and hoarse
45. I love it when they have Super Junior M activities in Taiwan --- I don't need translations. LOL! *LEARNING KOREAN THOUGH* also I get to see Kyuhyun, Henry, Zhoumi more, and and and and and and and Hyukjae and Sungmin joining SJM just completes my life. My whole bias list (minus Heechul and Yesung is on display) - Kyuhyun, Hyukjae, Henry... THEN THEN THEN Donghae and Kyuhyun are ALWAYS so much hyper in the Chinese Entertainment. Scratch that, THEY ALL ARE!!! All the crack are all bubbled in them with Leeteuk, Shindong Yesung and Heechul not there they are like "WAH!!! PAPA MAMA NOT HERE, I PLAY~!" *especially Hea and Kyu so yea* and and and this year them in Taiwan just makes my life so much better (because China shows are lame and Taiwan shows are AWESOME!!) and Taiwan LOVES Super Junior as a whole~ so more love to Henry and Zhoumi =)
46. I believe one day Henry and Zhoumi will be accepted by everyone that they are indeed Super Junior, because they really are. I still want to believe that this fandom is not as split apart as it really is. Because trust me, we may be the largest international fandom ever, but there are also a lot of brainless antis around that are also fans.
47. I don't believe in Forever unless it is attached to Super Junior. *you can say how I look at reality as it is, or I'm just delusional over Super Junior, don't pretty much care*
48. I always regret but I do it again anyways
49. I know Chinese, I speak it, I read it, just not VERY GOOD at writing it.
50. I get frustrated very easily if I don't know something that I should know
51. I love to fly
52. I love pretty airport and I can spend all day in it just going around the departure area and shop, but that I have to buy a ticket and fly LOL~
53. I love high heels
54. I blast music when I do work, when I'm bathing, when I do anything really.
55. I still think Ok Go's Music Videos are the BEST videos that I can loop forever and REALLY appreciate the hard work that they put in it when I watch their Behind the scenes.
56. I love how most of the time we don't need to worry about Kyuhyun doesn't want to eat.
57. I love how Kyuhyun has a little belly when he stands like how Mr.Choo stands
58. I hate memorising terms and names, but I hate memorising formulas even more.
59. My eyes are really weak, they tear all the time when they are really tired and I blink really hard because they are always itchy.
60. I don't really like gossips
61. I HATE immature people
62. I like smart and witty guys
63. I like guys with pretty fingers, tall, and have broad shoulders and a really beautiful/kid-like smile
64. I don't think I have accustomed to the term "Get married"
65. I can never picture myself having kids, because I pretty much loathe the idea of having to take care of loud and rowdy 3-5 foot long humans.
66. I like dark nail polish
67. I have no motivation at all to do anything that I don't like
68. I get really stressed and really bad mood if I'm force to it and I have to spend my time doing it
69. my heart always pause a while if I hear Kyuhyun's voice, be it from my own speakers, from radio or face to face like in concert, it just paused for a while. (I don't know if anybody understands this)
70. I respect Heechul a lot
71. I love Kyuhyun's mind, everything he says means a lot
72. I love Kyuhyun's brain as he absorb everything like he is a sponge
73. I love Kyuhyun (Full Stop) *This fact is different from #17 if you understand what I mean)
74. I cheat on Kyuhyun if Eunhyuk is being bullied, if Eunhyuk's dancing, if Eunhyuk is singing 좋은 사람 chorus with Heechul.
75. I cheat on Kyuhyun if Henry is being all cute and awesome and playing violin and singing Baby
76. I once cheat on Kyuhyun on March 20th 2010 because Zhoumi appeared with his mile long legs to sing Blue Tomorrow and looking all gorgeous
77. I have a wish that is to have a voice like Taeyeon, so I sing to her songs all the time. but those songs are awesome songs, okay~
78. I don't think I'll be able handle not listening to Kyuhyun, ever.
79. I love sweet things
80. I'm a hopeless romantic
81. I hate cheesy stuff
82. I love one piece pajamas because they are really comfortable. (Sungmin and Heechul aren't lying, js~)
83. I've never been in a relationship, never got chased, I only somehow liked 3-4 people. my life is sad. lol
84. I still think that rock concert is so much more awesome than any other concert =P
85. I'm a huge fan of CNBlue and 2AM under all these Super Junior =)
86. I stalk people in Twitter, blogs
87. I love reading fanfics. but not Yaoi ones, they are weird. and I can't get myself to read rated ones, unless it is violent/killing instead of you know what....... they are just weird and I can't stand them.
88. I hate bugs especially cockroaches, I hate lizards too
89. I hate skirts
90. I think tattoos are cool. I want to get a tattoo (might be getting one this year on my birthday)
91. I love snow, though I never see real snow before. I want to see snow, ski on REAL mountain slopes, ice skating on REAL frozen lake
92. I want to go Korea
93. I think donating blood is awesome I do that twice every year, might make it three when I find a hospital that is easy to approach, or I just go straight to blood bank.
94. When I switch on my PC and open chrome(assuming it's empty) the first thing I click is twitter. I'm a twitter addict. lol
95. I'm pretty arrogant in real life
96. I'll show that I don't like you if I don't like you. You don't need to second guess yourself if you think I don't like you. *Most of the time I only don't like one attitude, so if you don't go around flaunting that attitude that I don't like I'm fine with it. If it goes over the limit that I can stand, I'll tell you straight in the face. I've lost friends this way, but it's better this way that being all nice to them and go behind their backs. *btw, I've strengthen friendship this way too, mature people is loved*
97. When dealing with a certain m-u-m-m-y, I can be REALLY childish and not talk for a few weeks
98. I love my pillow
99. I only have one soft toy that was given by my grandma, a pink rabbit called Barney
100. My favourite childhood days are when I was 8 and with my second sister together with Duck Tales, Barney the Purple Dinosaur, microwaved eggs and cheese with the center not cooked for chili and tomato sauce. It was the best.

100 random facts~ lol~ I don't know if anyone would read this since it's so damn long and it's not worth reading (if you skipped Donghae's Pray For Michael post, I guess this is even useless to you then) But enjoy this, and if you did read this, go back to Pray For Michael post to read if you haven't already, that is shorter that this one, and so much more meaningful..... just saying.

***reread it, so many random Kyuhyun popping up***

I'm beginning to doubt the meaning of minor in Korean Entertainment Industry

How can that be minor?

I don't understand

hoooo.... Just be safe, okay, Kyu?

You went for filming

I don't know I should be happy or angry

Just take care of yourself, okay?

I'm still worried about you emotionally

I'm pretty sure you'll take care of yourself physically, I hope

But you in filming site, I doubt SM is being fair to you.

Kyuhyun

Please

Just say that you are alright

in any mode you like

I'm seriously not convinced

Awesome concert is awesome

I'm going to be a REAL hypocrite saying all this I'm going to say

This is what concert is all about
This concert of Hoobastank

Not about fan project
Not about how stand out you are as a fan
Not about you or them...

It's all about enjoying the performance

And this concert, I don't really care whether I've stood for 3 hours
Going through Yuna, The Azenders, Bunk Face and Wonder Girls which all of them are awesome btw
especially Bunk Face, awesome bunch of musician and that crackhead singer is awesome

Once Hoobastank came in with Out Of Control....
We really went out of control
Arms were raised, rock on sign up-ed, danced, jumped, sang along, screamed
Hoobastank you are awesome, I can't believe I saw you live just now..... you guys are fucking awesome
Dan....... you are still as cute as ever, and SOOO much good looking with your hair cut short. <3
Doug..... you too are still cute as ever. hhehehe~ go get married lo~
Chris.... He did change a little, can't pinpoint where because I can't recognise him at first. but still loved~ =)
They changed bassist, so I don't know who's that

concert like this is really a concert.
Now, can we get Yellowcard, Foo Fighters, 30 Seconds to Mars and Muse to Malaysia? =P
Yellowcard and Foo Fighters especially

I wasn't there last time

I didn't know what it was like

I'm here now

I'm afraid

Please be save, Kyuhyun ah~

I seriously don't think I can go through a April 2007
I don't think I can ever let go of your voice ever
you MUST be here
You are the miracle boy, and you always are.

and this have to happen in the same month.

Humans

They all need to learn how to use their brain

They all need to spend sometime growing up

They need to learn how to act their age

Seriously

Happy Birthday, dear Hyukjae

Happy Birthday, Hyukjae~

Stay forever cheerful and pick the members up when they are in the verge of breaking down like you did Heenim

I always have one part of my heart for you~

Hyukjae the person who bonds Super Junior

Happy Birthday~
Have a blessed every day~ =)

Hyukjae, you deserve the best for being who you are. =)

Taiwanese fans, I love you~
You guys are like the best fans that anyone can have.
The fireworks are awesome =')

*crying IDE*

I always regret a little too late

唉~又哭了..

Apr 3rd came, and Apr 3rd went.

I wonder how is Michael?

Are you alright, Michael?

Nothing last forever..........

sigh~

Yongseo Forever

~Crying buckets~

Doesn't even care that the Tile make it ugly....
The picture is beautiful and that's all it matters anyway~

Welcome to blogspot where transparent is awesome unlike twitter and weibo that I tried so many times.

I want a big Pororo and a big Koala bear soft toy.....

It's not that I don't want to believe
It's not that I don't want to try to understand

I know I don't want to be cut away
to feel awkward when we do our routine
to feel fake

All I want is the balance that I always wanted?
Can't we all have that?

Scared and afraid

Don't know how to take the first step forward.

Uncertainty is like the certainty of us needing water

sure and confirmed

I need that boost, but I don't think anything works now.

烦.

又哭了

Pray for Michael

Original Source. 이동해미니홈피
English Translation by. Euodsie and Gaia at SJ-WORLD.NET
Take out with full and proper credits, do not add yours in.
May be translated into other languages, but credit the original translator.

Title: Pray for Michael…
Written on 2011.4.1 at 03:13 AM

Hello this is Super Junior Donghae. I’m currently working hard with schedules in Taiwan. Working hard with the members for album promotions, as well as filming a brilliant challenge with Siwon...working hard for drama activities. At 12:30am today after daily Bible study with the members ended, Siwon and I were on our way back to our room when we saw a Chinese man drinking alone. So when we asked him why he was drinking alone...he said he was just diagnosed with laryngeal cancer. Then we had a conversation for about an hour and a half. On April 3rd the doctor will let him know whether he can survive or not by receiving surgery. As a result he said he is too sad, strained, exhausted and afraid. Siwonie and I told him to stop drinking, to put down the cigarette he was holding in his hand, and we prayed together. Michael does not know God and said that trying to pray was useless. He said that since he’s dying already he will spend his days drinking and smoking. But Siwon and I told him to come to church along with us to have good thoughts only and throw away the bad ones through praying. Michael said such sweet words, good thoughts... Anyone could tell such stories. Although he was very thankful, he said that Siwon and I were not him and would not know how he felt either, and that we were not in his position so we could never understand. This is why I told him about the story of my late father. My father was diagnosed with cancer too. For 3 years while he was getting treatment my father too found God and wanted to become God’s son. (He was really a Christian.) Here’s where I lied... I said he’s still living healthily... And that (Michael) should pray and stop drinking and smoking. Michael’s eyes were filled with so much fear and he was in a state where he didn’t even have much strength. So I wanted to give Michael hope, and truly wished Michael would be healthy in the future and that we could become friends who could have meals together, hence I thought of going ahead with the white lie that could give him hope. Michael is one who achieved really a lot and who also received recognition for having worked very hard. He kept telling us to go back and rest but Siwon and I didn't go and kept holding a conversation. With us looking at him, after all Michael threw his drink and also the cigarette away. Michael was so thankful to us for telling him such a good story and delivering a message that gave him hope and he told us he will carry on through praying and having good thoughts. As expected his steps were heavy... he said his wife was at home and that he was too late so we told him to come to our house to sleep. Michael said it's okay and that he was too happy because he met such two good friends and Super Junior and he told us that he will invite us for dinner and to express his thanks. I think that if we had passed him, just said hello and gone by perhaps Michael would've had worse thoughts and he'd be thinking more negatively than before. The saying that even crossing paths is fate...is obviously true. We are proud to be God's sons who can give someone hope and courage. Although everyone lives their own life if we look in front, and behind us a bit more at ease and stretch out our hands we could be able to really pass down big help and happiness. Just because you do not know someone do not pass them by but greet each other with a smile instead and if they don't say hello first, go yourself first and if you greet them with a smile the other party will probably like it and I think you could even become two good friends. I'd like to ask you to pray together. For Michael ...April 3rd is the day he receives the results. I beg you to please pray for Michael to be healthy and for light, not darkness, to be able to shine on his path. Also because this entry is in Korean ...I don't speak English...I'm not fluent in Chinese either. If amidst those who see this entry there are people able to translate it please translate this writing so that one becomes ten and ten become a hundred and so many more people will see this entry and pray for Michael for at least 30 seconds even. I think that success, money, and things alike are not important. I think importance lies within other things... Today too I am thankful to God who forged me and once again made me feel. And I'd like to say thank you to Siwon who makes time to guide the members and allow them come closer to God day by day. Good Night Michael...

Original Source. 이동해미니홈피
English Translation by. Euodsie and Gaia at SJ-WORLD.NET
Take out with full and proper credits, do not add yours in.
May be translated into other languages, but credit the original translator.