A responsibility that I shouldn't have

Since I wasn't in this Korean craze at the very beginning...

and being so into it now...

I do have my time outs such as this and I think long and hard about how my life has changed...

One thing to say...

My life is a lot more hectic I must say...

from all the things that I need to do...

from all the things that I need contribute...

and being a Kpop fan...

One must has a lot of spare cash...

really...

I have never felt this burden being so big...

until I stumble on to a video of fans saying sorry to Super Junior while crying...

because they didn't win the album of the year...

When they sell more than the winning team...

*as I don't want to create chaos... I shall just not say anything about the winning team...*

Because I didn't buy the album...

I have a sudden guilt...

and then I thought...

What?

I use to watch Grammy's, MTV Video Awards, MTV Music Awards

you name it...

The bands that are nominated like Linkin Park, Foo Fighters, Yellocard, Green Day and all the other I love..

When they lost I go meh~~~

and go back to enjoy their music they put out...

I have never... for once felt guilty..

felt a burden...

I was pretty much carefree, and burden-less when I haven't step my foot to Kpop...

As long they are touring...

They are still writing new songs...

All the others is not important...

Because like Dave Grohl said before...

Making music is what we love, and winning awards is just a bonus...

It's not important...

So when did Winning an Award so important in my book...

I don't even know...

I need to scrape away this feeling...